No question about it. The
mind is a beautiful thing, capable of giving us wonderful dreams,
playing pranks on us, moving mountains for us and hiding things from
us. It is a largely uncharted area. Full of mysteries. Full of
dangers.
Knowing how strong the
power of suggestion can be, I tried convincing myself that I wasn't
really ill. I even went for a walk today,
desperate for the light of day (however grey and weak it might be
this time of year) after spending the whole morning studying. I even
managed to convince myself that I felt better afterwards, and maybe I
really did feel better, until a few hours later, when I had to cancel
Friday's core session because I really didn't feel better at all.
Then I somehow developed
amazing psychic skills, managing to convince Potential Employer no 1
to invite me to an interview just by sending out my super strong
vibes to him/her. I then tried to repeat the feat with Potential
Employer no 2 (a.k.a the Employer I Really, Really Want To
Work For), staring at my phone, willing it to ring and checking my
email 582438975 times to see if he'd chosen that route instead. But
it was all in vain. My powers were all spent. The phone hasn't rung
(yet. I'm staying positive here). And my throat still hurts.
The mind is truly a
dangerous thing. Its synapses are the birthplace of denial, anger,
sorrow. The fountain of psychosis, depression, phobias. The doctor Frankenstein to the monster under your bed. But it is
also a marvellous thing, when it leads us to believe we can run
further, jump higher, move that mountain. So I'll just keep staring
at the phone, because I'm right for that job and that job is right
for me, dammit, and if I concentrate hard enough, my vibes will
reach Potential Employer no 2 and make him offer me the job on the
spot.
Next stop: using my incredible psychic skills to guess the winning lottery numbers.
Låter spännande med jobb!
ReplyDeleteJag borde börja fundera på jobb jag med. Eller - det gör jag - men på allvar.
Känns lite läskigt. Jag har nog inte fattat att jag faktiskt har sagt upp mig. Och det är ju dessutom väldigt trevligt att vara hemma lite :)
Jag håller så klart tummarna för dig!
Visst är det roligt att vara hemma, särskilt om man har massor med projekt på gång :) Och det känns läskigt för mig också. När det har gått så många år sen man fick söka jobb....hur gör man, liksom?!
DeleteTack, tusen tack! Imorgon hoppas jag att de ringer :D